Yeah, it wasn’t a virus. The pain is back. My joints are quietly and relentlessly reminding me that they’re hurting. I’m exhausted, body and mind. 

It’s difficult to avoid the downward spiral of thoughts that accompany these periods. 

I’ll never be well
I’ve always been sick
I’m holding others back
Pushing myself is selfish
You did too much
You did too much
You did too much

I did too much.